Mononucleosis

Sam is finally feeling better. He still gets tired easily, but he's definitely more like his old self now. I can't help but think that he would have started feeling better much sooner if the doctors had diagnosed him properly in the beginning. It took them over a month to decide to test him for mono. By that time, he was so worn down, it's no wonder it has taken him forever to recover. He ended up being absent from school for about 1/4 of the semester and restricted to half days for another 1/4. So, pretty much 1/2 of the semester was totally shot.

When I was 21, a doctor diagnosed me with mono, but looking back, I think it was a misdiagnosis. My primary symptom wasn't fatigue, but rather terrible swelling in my jaw, throat, and neck. In fact, my throat was so swollen I couldn't swallow even a sip of water, so I was dehydrated to the point that I passed out in the doctor's office. The doctor told me that I had either mono or mumps, but since "no one ever gets mumps these days", it must be mono. He ordered a blood test to check for mono, and it came back negative. He still insisted that it was mono, and I just took his word for it. So, since I've gone the last 20 years thinking I already had mono, when Sam was diagnosed with it, I didn't worry about getting it again. Well... I'm pretty sure I have mono NOW, not way back then. Most likely, I actually did have mumps when I was 21, although I have no idea where I got it. My dilemma now - How in the world am I going to get the rest I need to get over mono??? Waaaaa!!!!

Update on Sam

Thanks, everyone, for your thoughts and prayers for Sam's recovery. He's still extremely weak, but the doctor is confident that it's just because he had an extra-bad case of mono. Next week is the last week of school before Christmas, and he is restricted to half-days still. We're hoping that he will be able to regain his strength over Christmas break and be able to make it for full days at school next semester.

If you have any ideas or suggestions of thing that will help him get his stamina back, please leave a comment!

Long-Overdue Update

I haven't posted on here in over two months, because Sam has been sick for a LONG time. He started out with a terrible sinus infection that resisted four different rounds of antibiotics. That weakened his immune system so that he ended up with mono. He has missed over five weeks of school (four consecutive weeks), and although he has been back to school for over three weeks now, he is still limited to half days, per doctor's orders.

He went to an Ear, Nose, and Throat Specialist who prescribed a round of steroids and Flonase nasal spray. He also ordered a cat scan of his sinuses. He had the cat scan last Monday. Today, we got the results. Praise the Lord, it was, in the doctor's words, "perfect". The doctor said he still has some mucus in there, but continued use of Flonase should take care of it, eventually. He goes back in six months for a recheck.

Now, we're just waiting for Sam to get his stamina back up. It's worrying to see him get so worn out from even the slightest bit of activity.

Dad

Happy Birthday, Dad!

Anonymity

Borrowed from my friend Jim Duggan's twitter:

I am not a fan of cowards who hide behind the mask of anonymity. Thankfully, our Omniscient God knows who you are and will deal with you.

Everyone is welcome to leave comments on my blog, but don't expect them to be published if you aren't truthful enough to leave you name.

Interestingly, with modern technology, IP addresses make it very easy to figure out who you are; and you, my "friend" are a coward!

Sam Is Sick

Those of you who are my friends on facebook have undoubtedly seen my recent posts about Sam. He has been quite sick. He complained about his sinuses for over a week before I had a chance to get him to the doctor last Thursday. He was diagnosed with acute sinusitis and started on an antibiotic. The next day, he returned to school but probably shouldn't have.

Over the weekend, he started running a fever. Despite Ibuprofen, it rose to almost 102°. Sunday night, I determined that if he still had a fever the next morning, I would take him to the doctor. Well, his temp was back down to normal, so I didn't take him to the doctor, but I did keep him home from school since he was obviously still feeling sick.

Last night, his temp went back up to almost 102°, and this time, it didn't come all the way back down to normal. It came down a little, but not enough. I called the doctor's office soon after they opened and was able to get him in to see the doctor this afternoon. He was put on a different antibiotic and told not to go back to school until his fever has been gone for at least 24 hours. Tonight, it was back up over 101° -- not as high as the last couple nights, but still high enough to worry me.

He will definitely not be going to school tomorrow, and at this point, I'm not so sure about Thursday. If he's not doing better by Friday, he's supposed to go back to the doctor to be examined again (and probably put on yet another antibiotic).

I sure do hope this round of antibiotics works...and soon! He's so miserable, and it hurts me to see him like that. Please pray for him that he will be feeling better and be back to normal soon!

Appreciating Mom

While perusing status updates on facebook, I came across this post by one of my friends:

Your Mom is YOUR MOM. Nobody can replace her. Nobody should replace her. Nobody can do half the things she does or has done for you. Nobody can compare to her. Only God can love you more than she does. She’s only one person, but she’s the person that matters the most. REPOST IF YOU LOVE AND APPRECIATE YOUR MOM..no matter where she is, In Heaven or here on earth. I love you MOMMY!!!!!!!!!

I couldn't have said it better myself, so I copied and pasted it on my facebook. It perfectly describes the way I feel about my mom. She's been gone over eight and a half years now, and I miss her as much now as ever. There will NEVER be anyone who can replace my mom!!!

48 Hours

What if the doctor informed you that you had only 48 hours (or one week, or one month) to live? What would you do with that time? Who would you call or go see? What amends would you make so that your heart would be clear as you entered eternity?

In the Bible (James 4:14 KJV), it says, "Whereas ye know not what shall be on the morrow. For what is your life? It is even a vapour, that appeareth for a little time, and then vanisheth away."

We have no idea how much time we have left on this earth. Even the strongest, healthiest person can be killed instantly in a car wreck. It's good to be reminded periodically of the frailty of life. Don't put off what needs to be done. Don't die with things left undone, with affairs not in order, with forgiveness not granted, with promises not kept, with "I love you" not said.

Games People Play

I like games ... board games, card games, computer games ... you name it! I love Scrabble, and I've been playing it against my computer for quite a while. I can do pretty well as long as it's set on Intermediate or lower, but I struggle on the higher levels of difficulty. Well, I recently discovered Words With Friends on Facebook, and now I'm addicted to it, especially since I've downloaded the app for my iPhone. I have 10 or more games going on at any given time. I win some, and I lose some, but I always enjoy it, regardless. (If you're looking for someone to play against, feel free to start a game with me. My username on the mobile app is suzanne2770.)

I'm also addicted to Minesweeper on my computer. I can play it for hours and never get tired of it, even though I rarely win. (I've won only 33 out of 2068 games on the advanced level.) I downloaded that app to my iPhone as well, but it's not all that fun since the whole game won't fit in the window.

These kinds of games I like a lot; mental or emotional games, not so much.

Every Day

For the last 18 years:

Young Love

Sam has a girlfriend, and I'm almost as happy about it as he is. Sarah is beautiful (or in Sam's words "so hot!") and as sweet as she is pretty. She is a good Christian girl who wanted a good Christian boyfriend. I must say, I couldn't be more pleased.

Here is a picture of Sam and Sarah taken in the kitchen at church.

Mom

Lately, I have been missing my mom a lot. There are times when I think of her and miss her more than at other times, and this is one of those times. Usually, when I'm overwhelmed with thoughts of her, it's a time that has special significance to her - her birthday, the anniversary of her death, Christmas (her favorite holiday), etc.

Right now, it's not a specifically significant day. There are just so many things on my mind that I'd like to talk about with her. Sam is growing into such a marvelous young man, and every day there are new things I want to tell her about

Sure, I have family and friends to talk to, but it's just not the same. I. Miss. My. Mom!

This week, I've heard this song a couple times on the radio, and every time I hear it, I think of Mom and wish for one more day with her.

Iced Coffee

If you know me much at all, you probably know of my love for iced coffees. In fact, I think I just might be addicted to them, even though I don't have an addictive personality, rarely becoming addicted to anything. It all started when I bought one at McDonald's. Then, I discovered the iced mochas at Burger King...mmmmm, are they ever good!! I've had iced coffees from just about every restaurant around here that serves them. The best one I've had, by far, was from the Manna Bagel Co.

Since I live on a very tight budget, I can't buy myself iced coffees as often as I'd like, so I started making them at home. I've tried many different methods, and I've finally come up with the PERFECT homemade iced coffee. I'd like to say I made it up myself, but truthfully, I read about it in an article I saw.

The article said that in order to make a great iced coffee, you have to start with cold-brewed coffee. It said that when you brew coffee the normal way and then chill it, it makes the iced coffee weak and bitter. I hadn't really noticed it before, but I knew the article was right. It went on to suggest a few different cold-brewed coffees you can buy, but they were out of my price range. Thankfully, the article also included instructions on cold brewing coffee at home. I tried it and fell in love all over again!

I poured a cup of water in a large mug and stirred in 1 tablespoon of ground coffee. I placed it in the refrigerator and let it chill over night. When I was ready to drink it, I strained it through a coffee filter into a tumbler. I added 2 tablespoons of sweetened condensed milk (since sugar doesn't dissolve well in cold drinks), about 6 ounces of milk, and a little chocolate syrup. I stirred it until the condensed milk was completely dissolved, added a few ice cubes, and discovered my most favorite drink in the whole world! It was heavenly!

Seriously, I was surprised at what a difference it made to use cold-brewed coffee. It takes some planning and forethought, but it's definitely worth it.

By the way, when I make iced coffee at home, I like to use flavored coffee. The one I had today was made with Millstone Cinnamon Hazelnut coffee. Mmmmmm...that's some good stuff!!

What I've Learned

It may have taken me a while, but I've finally learned not to waste my time thinking about someone who doesn't spend any of his time thinking about me.

Financial Enhancement, LLC

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Head over to Financial Enhancement, LLC today. What have you got to lose?

Pandora

Have you tried Pandora internet radio? I've heard about it for quite a while, and Sam has been using it for two or three years now. I guess I'm just behind the times, but I just recently downloaded the app on my iPhone, and I.LOVE.IT!

I had it cranking while I was in there washing dishes earlier, and it made the task not seem so horrible. Here are a couple songs I especially enjoyed singing along with:

Proud Mama

I'm sure my mom is sitting in Heaven beaming down in pride for my son, her youngest grandchild. She was a very influential part of his formative years. (He still talks about things she taught him many years ago.)

This past Sunday night, Sam informed the church that he had surrendered to preach. I've been proud of him on many occasions but never more than at that moment! He has always had a tender heart and has soaked in the Bible.

Last night, I took Sam to the Bristol Area-Wide Tent Revival. There were very few young people there. In fact, I was one of the youngest people in attendance. That did not dampen his spirits, though. He sang the hymns with gusto and listened to both the choir and John Bishop with rapt attention. He is hoping to get to go back tonight to hear Clarence Sexton, but since I have to work, I don't know if he'll get to go.

Throughout his nearly 16 years, I have been very proud to call Sam my son, and I marvel more and more that this incredible young man is MY son!

What a Night!

I'm so glad last night is over and done with! I had a good day yesterday and was hopeful that my evening would continue in the same mode, but it was not to be! When I got to work, I was given a note with instructions from my department manager. It seemed to me that it was probably a little more work than I could get done in my four-and-a-half-hour shift, but I was determined to give it my best shot. One thing the note said was that I was NOT to be called to the front so that I could get my work done. Yeah, like that was really going to happen! When I was paged to go to the front to get on a register, I called up there to let them know that, per the co-manager, I was not to go up there. I was informed that he was the one who told them to call me, so off I went to the front. I ended up on the register for AN HOUR!!!

When I finally got back to the toy department, said co-manager came by and reminded me to call for a zone check before I left, and I asked if he realized I had been up front for an hour. Well, he let me know that he expected me to still be able to get everything done, even though I expressed doubt that it could have been done had I been left alone for my entire shift.

I must confess, that really upset me! It's not my fault that the store is managed so poorly that they never have enough cashiers and constantly have to call associates from the floor to help out up front. Besides, I got off the front end because I didn't want to be a cashier any more. So much for that, huh?

Now, if this had been an isolated incidence, it probably would not have phased me much; but the problem is, it happens ALL THE TIME! I work as hard as I possibly can, and I do my job well, but I can't be expected to do as much in three and a half hours as I could have gotten done in four and a half hours. I became very despondent and was seriously contemplating quitting. Thankfully, God sent along a couple different friends from church who encouraged me.

Then, when I got home, I thought my awful night was over, and I sat down to unwind. I heard someone knocking loudly on the door. It was a neighbor informing me that my car had rolled away. When I got home, I was still a little upset about work and so very tired that I failed to put the car in gear or pull the emergency brake. Once again, God was looking out for me. A curb stopped my car just before it hit a neighbor's fence, and somehow, it barely missed hitting a mailbox. Amazingly, my car (and all the surroundings) survived the incident without a single scratch. I felt stupid but also very relieved!

After such an evening, I was afraid I'd have troubles going to sleep, but I didn't. I believe I was asleep before my head hit the pillow, and slept like a baby.

Back to the ER with Sam

I haven't written in here in quite a while because I've been much too busy.

Last night, after I got off work, I had to take Sam to the ER for a leg injury. He was wrestling with a friend Monday and fell on some steps. His right leg hit the edges of one of the steps. Then, he walked in a parade, which was probably the worst thing he could have done. It was very swollen and bruised, but I thought it would be okay in a couple days. Well, Sam has complained about it all week, and when he showed it to me last night, I was shocked at how bad it still looked. I became afraid that the bone was actually broken.

We got to the ER at 11pm and had to wait in the waiting room for what seemed like forever. (It was actually about an hour and half.) They were very busy, and their computer system was down. Once we got back to a room, the RN apologized to us several times for how long it was taking.

When the doctor looked at the leg, he was concerned that the bone might be cracked, so he ordered X-rays. Thankfully, the bone was not broken at all. The muscle, however, is badly bruised and swollen. Also, there is a large hematoma. The doctor told us to keep a close eye on it for the next week or so because of the possibility of blood clots or compartmentalization. Also, Sam isn't supposed to be using his leg much at all, and no going up or down steps if it can be avoided.

Earlier this year, I bought Sam a loft bed to conserve space in his room. All this week, he has been climbing up the ladder to the bed, and that hasn't been good for his leg. Last night, he slept on cushions on the floor. I guess he'll do that for at least the rest of the week.

Here is a picture I took in the ER last night. It's not a great one since I had to sneak and take it because Sam didn't want me to take any pictures.

Love Without End

The words of this song so accurately describe the never-ending love of my heavenly Father. My earthly father, not so much.

True Christianity

Are you a true Christian? Or are you just hoping that you'll somehow make it into Heaven one day? These are the most serious questions you'll ever face. Candace Cameron Buré (DJ from "Full House") talks about this important subject in a way that is very easy to understand. Please take the time to watch this video and heed what she says.

Missing Sam

Have I mentioned that I miss Sam? The house is quiet, TOO quiet. Tomorrow night, when he is back home, I may be wishing for the quiet again; but I will be so glad to have my boy back home. He will be bursting at the seams, eager to tell me all about his trip and the roller coasters and everything that went on while he was gone. I guess I'll savor the quietness for this one last night and then drink in all his excitement tomorrow night. Goodnight, friends.

Quietness

Friday morning, I dropped Sam off at the church for the youth group's mission trip. It has been blissfully quiet at the house, but I must admit that I miss him! So, this has been my opportunity to get out and have a little fun without having to worry about Sam. Unfortunately, I've either had to work, or I've been lying in bed in pain. I was hurting all over so badly on Saturday that I had to call in to work. I hate doing that! I spent the entire day IN BED. I was still not feeling well Sunday and slept away the whole afternoon between the morning and evening church services. Oh well, at least the house was quiet, and I didn't have to worry about being asked to get up and do things for Sam (like turn off his light since his bed is a loft bed, and he doesn't like to have to get down just to turn off the light...haha). He'll be back for just a few hours Tuesday night and then off again at an ungodly hour Wednesday morning. I'll be glad when he's back home Friday night. Despite the complaining I do when he doesn't let me rest, I miss the booger when he's not home!

Transient Friends

Sometimes, people come into our lives for just a period of time, not a lifetime. Although it's hard to let them go, it's for the best.

Boys!!!

I was out with a friend tonight, and I got a call from Sam, "Mom, I might need to go to the Emergency Room." Yeah, that's just what I want to hear. Thankfully, it turned out to not be very serious. It's getting to where I'm afraid to leave him at home alone any more.

A few days ago, when I walked in the door, the first thing he said was, "Today I discovered that firecrackers and glass bottles aren't a good combination." That day, he got cut on his arm as he was blocking his face from flying glass after setting off firecrackers in it ... IN THE HOUSE, I might add!!! So, I told him that day NO MORE firecrackers while I'm gone to work!

So, guess what I smelled as I walked in the door a couple days later. Yep! Smoke from firecrackers, which had been lit IN THE HOUSE again. I took away his Xbox for that, but then I got to thinking that without his Xbox, he wouldn't have anything to play with other than matches and firecrackers. What's a mom to do???

Tomorrow, he leaves for a missions trip with the church youth group, and he'll be gone for a week. Of course, I'm going to be nervous about what crazy thing he'll do while he's away from me, but I'm also going to miss him badly! I've had a lot of fun with him so far this summer.

Just As I Am

Arms

I recently discovered this artist, and I love her music! This song, especially, puts into words some of what I've been feeling in the past few weeks. The arms that have been around me have felt like home, and I like that feeling!

To My Friend Bill Stacy

Last summer, Bill Stacy started coming to my church. You couldn't miss him; he was a giant man! As I came to know him, I realized that the biggest part of him was his heart. I've never known a kinder or more generous man.

When I was in the hospital last fall, he brought Sam to see me. That was the beginning of a dear friendship. Bill and Sam bonded on the car ride to and from the hospital. Bill, a very talkative man, gained Sam's respect by taking the time to listen to him. He also respected Sam for his maturity and good manners. Often at church, he would tell me he thought a lot of Sam and was praying for him, and that meant the world to me!

In January, my refrigerator went out right after I had filled it with our monthly groceries. Everything in it was ruined and had to be thrown out. Bill and his wife Darlene were the only ones who helped us replace the food we lost, even though they were going through financial difficulties at the time. That's just the kind of people they are.

Lately, Bill was having trouble breathing, and he ended up being admitted in the hospital with bronchitis. While in the hospital, he became infected with staph. It turned out to be MRSA, which is resistant to antibiotics.

Yesterday, Sam and I went to the hospital to see Bill, but he didn't even kn we were there. At 2:44pm today, I receved a text from my pastor letting me know that Bill had just passed away. Although I cried a few tears, I know Bill is better off, and I WILL see him again some day.

Please keep Bill's dear wife Darlene in your prayers. My heart aches for her as goes through this time of loss.

Friends

This is for my good friend "JSR". Thanks for always being my friend, regardless!

Awesome Date

Last night I had the best date night in a long, long time. I didn't get off work until 8:00, so we grabbed a quick bite to eat at Pal's (the BEST hamburgers in the Tri-Cities) and topped it off with a Blizzard from Dairy Queen for dessert. Then, we went to see the best movie I've seen in a while. Fast Five. If you haven't had a chance to see it yet, you need to go while it's still in theaters, and stay until the end of the credits. I'm not going to say why, exactly, because I don't want to ruin it; but it's worth it. I guess I was too busy drooling over Paul Walker and Vin Diesel to figure things out. I was taken by surprise a few times, but Sam said he pretty much expected things to turn out as they did. Wouldn't want to admit that he's more astute than I am, so I'll just stick with the assumption that I was too distracted by Paul Walker's smile and Vin Diesel's muscles. Mmmmmmm!!!! haha

Ain't God Good

After writing the previous post, this song came to mind, and I just had to share it. I think it's awesome that it features Brian Free, after my Brian-Free-fest last night.

Dear Friend

Last night, I talked to a very dear friend for the first time in nearly two years. One cool part about it was being able to pick right back up, as if there had been no time lapse at all. It's really awesome when that happens! The best part, though, is that we are able to share on a whole new level now. The last few months, I have grown closer to God than I have been in a while, and my friend became truly saved! Wow! Now he's not only my friend, but also my brother. I'm overwhelmed. It was a great night!!

We shared pictures of our kids...all grown up now, and we talked at length about what we've been studying in the Bible lately. We even listened to a sermon together on the internet and then discussed it. That was a great experience!

Another very cool thing is that I may actually get to see him this weekend. How awesome would that be??? I'm going to say it again...I'm overwhelmed.

Where Would You Be

Sorry, I just can't get enough Brian Free tonight. This song has such a powerful message. Please listen to it and consider your answer very carefully.

Just a Little Talk with Jesus

Here's another great song. This one reminds me of when I was a young girl, and my family used to travel a lot. We would sing in the car, and this was one of our favorite songs to sing. Whenever I hear it, I remember Daddy singing the bass part as he was driving down the road.

Oh What a Saviour

This has always been one of my favorite songs, and Brian Free has always been one of my favorite singers. Wow! Does he ever nail this song!

Giving to the Less Fortunate

One big lesson my mom taught me was to give away things I no longer needed. She was always giving huge bags of clothing to either Goodwill or the Salvation Army. I have followed her example and have given lots of things to either one of those places or directly to people who can use them.

On facebook this morning, I saw a status along those lines. It made me laugh, but at the same time, it's so true. It said, "I don't get mad when I see my ex with someone else. My parents taught me to give my used toys to less fortunate people." I just had to use it for my status today as well.

Enjoy my left-overs, Kelly! :)

On Again, Off Again

On Again Tonight

Mother's Day Weekend

This was a bittersweet weekend for me. While it serves to remind me how blessed I am to be Sam's mom, it also makes me miss my mom more than usual.

Saturday evening, Sam told me that since he didn't have any money to buy me a present for Mother's Day, he would do the dishes for me. Of course, to me that was a better gift than anything money could buy. Then, he went on ever so sweetly, "Since you're my mom and like to spend time with me, you can help." What a stinker! It made me laugh while appreciating his logic.

At church Sunday morning, someone gave Sam some money so he could take me out for dinner. He was so excited as he asked me where I wanted to go eat. We had just enough money for us both to get unlimited soup, salad and breadsticks at the Olive Garden. We had a great time! We both ate too much, though, and were miserable the rest of the afternoon.

In the morning service, the children's choir blessed us all with a few songs. The kids sing so sweetly and innocently. I just love it when they sing for us.

In both services, the youth choir provided special music. In the morning service, Sam had a solo part in one song. He has a great voice, and I'm proud of him for using his talent for God. I love my boy so much!

Don't Worry

I'm not posting anything about you, so you really don't have to check out my blog multiple times a day to make sure. I have nothing to say to or about you. Go on about your life...there's nothing here for you to see.

Say It Loud, Say It Clear

In the Living Years

Who Do You Think You Are?

Jar of Hearts

You Make Me Smile

This song always makes me smile!

Hopeful Prospects

I had a teleconference with my new boss this morning, and the future is looking very bright! I'm really looking forward to working with him. Actually, I have quite a bit to do today, so I've moved my laptop to the kitchen table where it's nice and sunny with the front door open. It's a beautiful day in the neighborhood!! Enjoy it ya'll.

Happiest Girl...

Have I mentioned I'm happy? It's a wonderful life! My wish is that all my readers are as happy as I am.

Happy Girl

I'm happy. That's all there is to say.

Interesting Weekend

My weekend started out as a typical, boring weekend. I worked in the toy department all day Saturday. I was still finding pieces of broken skylights on the shelves, and I found a few more water-damaged toys to send to claims. Other than that, it was a day full of boring routine.

Sam spent his day at Blountville Middle School where our church youth group had a fundraiser. I'm not sure what was going on there, but they had a booth where they were selling cotton candy and passing out tracts. From the sounds of it, he had a good day. I'm glad. He usually has to spend his Saturdays cooped up at home.

We went to Sunday School yesterday morning, but then Sam was so sick that I had to bring him home before the morning service. Same thing happened in the evening. Sam went to youth discipleship in the afternoon but was too sick to stay for the evening service. (I sure hate missing church!) He took some medicine last night and seemed to be feeling better this morning. So far, I haven't received a call to pick him up early from school, so I guess he's still feeling better.

Last night, I got to visit with a high school friend for a while. That was a lot of fun. I've seen him at Walmart a few times since I've been working there, but this is the first time I've gotten to spend any time with him since we were in high school together, 25 years ago. (Wow! that just made me feel really old!)

When I got home, around 2am, and checked out facebook, I was informed that Osama Bin Laden has been killed by Navy SEALs. Now, THAT's an exciting way to end a weekend!

Tornadoes and Hail

Last night was a devastating night in much of the south, including the Tri-Cities. According to a news report, there were 15 killed in the Tri-Cities. They said we had tornadoes and hail here. I did not see or hear a tornado, but I did see the hail! My driveway was covered with hail the size of golf balls, and some even as big as baseballs. The only damage we sustained was to my poor car. The grill right below the front windshield was busted in several places, the roof has dents all over it, and both doors are dented.





I don't know if you can see the dents on the roof. The lighting isn't good as it is very overcast this morning.

We lost power several times, but for only a minute or so each time. Some of my friends are still without power this morning. Taking Sam to school, I saw much devastation in Bristol. Everywhere was covered with leaves, and there were tree limbs and whole trees down in several places. There were a few traffic lights out. The strangest thing I saw was a trampoline wrapped around a light pole. That was something else!

I didn't work yesterday, but I heard from co-workers that the skylights at Walmart were broken by the storm, which let the hail and rain in the store. I went by there this morning after I dropped Sam off at school to see how bad it was, but the store was closed. That let me know that it must be pretty bad!! I'm scheduled to work 5-9:30 tonight. I wonder if the store will be open by then. I'm so not looking forward to going in tonight!

I hope that all of my friends and family who live in areas affected by these horrible storms are all safe and sound.

Bird's Nest

I have noticed a bird flying out from our eaves whenever we go on the front porch, and I saw some twigs up there. Yesterday, Sam took a chair out there so he could reach it because he wanted to find out if there were any eggs in the nest. Well, the nest turned out to be more elaborate than I had imagined, and there were four bright blue eggs in it. I took a picture and told Sam to put the nest back where he got it. He said that that the bird wouldn't come back to it since a human had messed with it, so the eggs will just die anyway. That made me very sad, but I am happy to announce that the bird DID come back to the nest last night. Pretty soon, I'm sure we will hear the cheeping of little baby birds on our front porch.

Conscience

"If you can live happily with unconfessed sin, if you can live and flourish while you've not any real communion with God, then you have the infallible proof that you've never been born again." - Alan Cairns

While Christians don't ever reach sinless perfection, we should not be able to habitually sin without feeling the conviction of the Lord. I see people around me who claim to be born again, yet they can apparently sin over and over without any pangs of guilt or conscience. Of course, we cannot tell how others feel, and they may very well be miserable inside. But, if they are really able to be happy while in a state of sin, they have good reason to doubt their salvation. It is my desire that all my friends and family have a real relationship with God and make certain of their eternal destination.

My Feelings About My Job

I Surrender All

I can remember singing "I Surrender All" as the invitational hymn at the end of many church services when I was young. It was always one of my favorites. As I got older, I started paying more attention to the words of the song. They were very convicting. Many times, I would just hum the song because I couldn't honestly sing the words. I knew that although I freely surrendered most, there was usually one little part of my life that I wouldn't give up. Lately, I have become in awe again of God's great love toward us. He gave us His all; how can we not give Him our all? I have recently given everything back to Him, after holding onto something which I considered too dear to let go for over four years. I feel such a sense of freedom now. I am now free to do what God wants me to do, and I am free to receive His blessings in my life. I hope you will be blessed by this song and that you can honestly sing the words.

Easter Sunday, part 3

Today just kept getting better and better. The ironic thing is I was having a really bad day. I didn't want to go to church this morning or tonight, but I'm so glad I went to both services! I mentioned in my previous post about the wonderful service this morning, but I failed to mention that the auditorium was packed. I heard tonight that there were over 430 there this morning! Praise God!

Tonight, the sign team did a wonderful job. I wish I had gotten pictures of them, but I forgot I had my camera with me. I did remember my camera when the youth group did their skit, though. Below are pictures of that and one picture of the youth group as they sang "Glorious Day" at the end of the service.

Easter Sunday, part 2

Wow! What a wonderful Easter service at my church! Jesus was magnified, and the Gospel was preached. The King's Kids Choir sang and blessed us all. I love it when the children get up and sing praises to God! Then, the adult choir presented the Easter cantata "In The Presence Of Jehovah". The songs were so powerful and moving, I was fighting back tears at the end of it. Our pastor shared the Gospel and offered the opportunity for anyone present who was not a Christian to come to Jesus today and accept Him as Savior. I thank God for my church!

Easter Sunday, part 1

Pictures with the Easter Bunny and egg hunts are fun for children, and everyone looks so nice in their new Easter outfits. But, let's not forget the what Easter is all about. Jesus, the Son of God came from Heaven to die a terrible death so that we can have everlasting live. Then, He did what no one else could ever do; He rose from the dead and lives now to make intercession for us. Hallelujah! What a Savior!

Here is a beautiful song that is perfect for Easter. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do.

This Old House

About 11 years ago, a sweet friend made a compilation of music for me, and this song was included. I thrive on sad songs, so this one instantly became a favorite. It played on my ipod last night, and I decided to share it here.

He Wants It All

I heard this song for the first time on the radio yesterday, and it went right along with what my daily Bible studies have been about lately. Jesus gave us His all when he came to earth to give His life for us. He's not asking for too much when He asks for our all.

HE WANTS IT ALL

There's a voice that cries out in the silence,

Searching for heart that will love Him,

Longing for child that will give Him their all,

Give it all, He wants it all.

There's a God that walks over the earth,

He's searching for heart that is desperate,

And longing for child that will give Him their all,

Give it all, He wants it all,

And He says, love Me, love Me with your whole heart

He wants it all today.

Serve Me, serve Me with your life now

He wants it all today.

Bow down, let go of your idols

He wants it all today (x4)

There's a God that walks over the earth,

He's searching for heart that is desperate,

Longing for child that will give Him their all,

Give it all, He wants it all

And He says, love Me, love Me with your whole heart

He wants it all today.

Serve Me, serve Me with your life now

He wants it all today.

Bow down, let go of your idols

He wants it all today (x4)

Oh oh oh, all of you, more of you

Wants it all today (whole thing x3)

He wants it all today, He wants it all today

So give it all.

There's a voice that cries out in the silence,

Searching for heart that will love Him,

Longing for child that will give Him their all,

Give it all, He wants it all.

Where Is Love?

I like reading classic novels. It must be my inner librarian I inherited from my mom. One of my favorite classic authors is Charles Dickens. His novel A Tale of Two Cities is my favorite, but a close second is Oliver Twist. I love the musical "Oliver!" based on the novel. In one sad part of the movie, Oliver, locked in a cellar and looking out a window, sings this song in his sweet, childish voice. Every time I watch the movie, I cry at that part. For some reason today, that song came to mind, and I just had to share it.

What Is Love?

Some people throw that word around so freely. They love everything from their morning coffee to the way their socks feel on their feet. I understand, somewhat, since I tend to have extreme emotions and rarely feel neutral about anything. But, when it comes to loving people, what does that entail? C.S. Lewis said, "Love is not affectionate feeling, but a steady wish for the loved person's ultimate good as far as it can be obtained." I think that pretty much sums it up. Love should be about making the other person's life better, not about what that person can do to better your life.

With this being the week before Easter, it seems more than appropriate to use the love of God as an example. Jesus left the splendors of Heaven to come here with the intent to die for us. His love was/is all about making our lives (and even more our afterlife) better. He wasn't concerned about the hardships His decisions made for Himself. He went so far as to give up His life so that we might live forever.

Is there anyone you would die for? That is true love. There are only two people on earth that I would die for, and I love them both enough to sacrifice my own comfort, happiness, even my life to see that their lives are the best they can be. My happiness comes when I see they are happy in their lives.

E. H. Ministry

At my church, we have E.H. Ministry on Tuesday evenings. I usually have to work on Tuesday evenings, so Sam and I haven't been able to be involved in E.H. Well, today, I worked 7am to 4pm, so we got to go tonight. E.H. stands for Every House, and it's a visitation program. There is a meal beforehand, and then teams go out visiting different categories of people. Tonight, I went out with Michelle Cross and three kids from the youth group (Mackenzi, Mandie, and Mason), and we visited young people who either have visited our church or who attend our church but do not come for Sunday school. Sam went out with the pastor's wife and some other kids, and they visited children who have come to Awana. We both had a great time and can't wait to go again next week since I don't work next Tuesday. Yay!

Busy Days

Whew! The past week or so has been so busy! I finally got to rest some yesterday. Actually, I collapsed yesterday!

Thursday evening, Sam left for New York City with his high school band. I had requested to be off work Friday and Saturday so I could have a little time to myself and get some much-needed housework done. Well, not only was my time off request rejected, I was scheduled full 8-hour shifts both days. And, I worked my tail off both days! It was two days full of moving merchandise from one place to another, setting up displays, etc. By the time Sunday got here, I hurt so bad all over that I couldn't move. I took some pain relievers and stayed in bed, moaning, all day!

In my "spare time" the past couple weeks, I've been working on a new business project. A college friend and I, along with his brother and sister, are hoping to get a new business going; and we're hoping it will be up and operational by the end of this month. I've been working on the website, a blog, and a facebook presence. I'm hoping some of that will be completed by this weekend. There's a lot of work going into this, but it has potential to be a viable venture.

So, now, on top of body aches and pains, my head also hurts from all this thinking and staring at the computer screen. I'm going to get off here for the evening and give my eyes and brain a break. Have a good week ya'll!

Blessings

Several of my friends have posted this song on their facebook pages, and I finally decided to listen to it today. Wow! Just what I needed to hear today.

Glorious Day

I love this new take on the old hymn "One Day". The hymn has always been one of my favorites, and when I heard this new version of it, I loved it immediately.

I Love My Church!

Yesterday was a wonderful day in the Lord at Charity Baptist Church. Our pastor preached the Word of God unashamedly. I'm so thankful that I have a pastor who is not afraid of the opinions of men but steadfastly preaches the Word of God without apology.

In the morning service, we had the largest crowd ever for a non-Easter Sunday. Praise God for what He is doing at Charity Baptist Church and in Blountville, TN!!

I was the special singer yesterday, for my first time at this church. (Figures it would be on a Sunday with an unusually large attendance!) I am typically stricken with intense stage fright, but yesterday, God calmed my nerves and helped me to just sing praise to Him.

If you live in the Tri-Cities, you should come visit us sometime. I guarantee you won't find a more loving church in this area! I'll be looking for you!!

Strong Enough

 Lately, I've been going through a lot of trials. I understand why some have come along, but I can't see the purpose in others. I'm so weak and unable to go through all this alone. My wonderful friend Beth recommended this song to me today, and it is just what I needed to hear. When I'm weak, Jesus is strong enough to get me through. What a blessing!

STRONG ENOUGH

You must

You must think I'm strong

To give me what I'm going through

Well, forgive me

Forgive me if I'm wrong

But this looks like more than I can do

On my own

I know I'm not strong enough to be

everything that I'm supposed to be

I give up

I'm not strong enough

Hands of mercy won't you cover me

Lord right now I'm asking you to be

Strong enough

Strong enough

For the both of us

Well, maybe

Maybe that's the point

To reach the point of giving up

Cause when I'm finally

Finally at rock bottom

Well, that's when I start looking up

And reaching out

I know I'm not strong enough to be

Everything that I'm supposed to be

I give up

I'm not strong enough

Hands of mercy won't you cover me

Lord right now I'm asking you to be

Strong enough

Strong enough

Cause I'm broken

Down to nothing

But I'm still holding on to the one thing

You are God

and you are strong

When I am weak

I can do all things

Through Christ who gives me strength

And I don't have to be

Strong enough

Strong enough

I can do all things

Through Christ who gives me strength

And I don't have to be

Strong enough

Strong enough

Oh, yeah

I know I'm not strong enough to be

Everything that I'm supposed to be

I give up

I'm not strong enough

Hands of mercy won't you cover me

Lord right now I'm asking you to be

Strong enough

Strong enough

Strong enough

Practice What You Preach

This week, I've experienced how hard that can be. Last Thursday night, I stood before the ladies group at my church as the speaker at our monthly meeting. My topic was "Why Does God Allow Bad Things To Happen To His Children?" I told a personal story and at the end, gave several answers based on my own experience.

Tuesday was such a bad day, and yesterday wasn't much better. I found myself wondering why those bad things were happening to me, and I had to remind myself of the lesson I had given just a few days earlier. Honestly, all I want to do right now is sit around and mope and feel sorry for myself. But, maybe I'm being tested by God to see if I really believe what I taught. The last line of my lesson was: "Remember that God is always good and will not allow us to be tried without a reason." Now, I just need to apply that to what it is going on in my life this week.

Sleep Texting

Sam has always had vivid, disturbing dreams. Even as an infant, he would cry out in his sleep, and his pediatrician said he was having nightmares. All his life, he has cried out in his sleep, had conversations with me in his sleep, sleepwalked, etc. Last night, he did something he has never done before. He sent me a text in his sleep! He was dreaming that I was talking to a man with a towel on his head, and Sam had a bad feeling about him and wanted to warn me.

My Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day

Yesterday ended up being an awful day. It started out pretty good. I got a lot done around the house while Sam was at school.

I had to be at work at 5pm, and I had to stop at Scott's house on the way to get clean work clothes which I had washed there. When I pulled into his road, an impatient driver behind me turned onto that road as well. Apparently, I didn't get off the road quickly enough to suit him, and he literally ran me off the road, causing me to hit a car parked in front of Scott's house. The car I hit belongs to one of Scott's friends. It's a registered antique, a 280Z, that Scott is doing some work on. Now it needs more work. Thankfully, all it needs is a front bumper. The bumper got caught in the side of my car and scraped all down the side, starting around the middle of the passenger door and extending to the back wheel. Looks like my car will need a new door, rear panel, and rim. Of course, the person who ran me off the road was in too big a hurry to stop. It was all such confusion at the time of the wreck, that I'm not quite certain if he hit me or not. My back bumper is scratched up, but it's not dented.

Here's a picture of the damage to the rear panel:



As soon as I got my car unattached from the Z, I got out to survey the damage. At that time, I didn't think I had sustained any personal injury, so I went on to work. Once I got to work and started walking around, I realized that I had hurt my left knee. By the time I got off work at 9:30, it was swollen and hurting pretty badly. When I got home, I put ice on it and slept with it propped up on a big pillow. The swelling was down this morning, but the pain is worse. I'm thinking I might have to have it checked out.

As if that wasn't enough for one day, when I got to work, I found out that I didn't get the position I interviewed for last week. I was qualified, but apparently someone else had more experience. I really needed that job!

Today, I'm going to rest as much as possible, and keep my knee propped up. Hopefully today will be a better day.

Gas Experience

I had quite the experience at the gas station this morning. I filled up at Kroger, since I do my grocery shopping there and earn fuel points. I had a debit card to pay with, but I chose to pay at the window since the debit card company will put a hold of $75 on any gas purchases at the pump. After I pumped my gas and went to the window to pay, the attendant informed me that the debit/credit card system was down, and I'd have to pay with cash. I didn't have any cash. I told him that if there had been a sign on the pump, I would have gone somewhere else where I could use my card. He said that since I selected to pay at the window, he assumed I was paying with cash. At one point, he informed me that I needed to either pay him, or he was going to call the cops. I let him know very adamantly that it was NOT my fault, and that he needed to either run my card or let me have my gas for free. (I knew THAT wasn't going to happen!) He called a couple different managers and finally told me I could go to the bank across the street and get cash out of the ATM and come back and pay. He made sure he wrote down my tag number first, just in case I didn't come back. I told him the ATM would charge me $3, and that wasn't fair. So, the manager told him he could knock the $3 off my total to reimburse me. So, that's what I did. What a hassle!! I still think they should have let me have my gas for free since it was such an ordeal.

Happy Birthday, Mom!

If my mom were alive, she would be 70 today. I still love her and miss her terribly. She was the greatest mom ever and a wonderful example of a Christian lady.

Happy Birthday, Mom!!!

More Than Words Can Say

Another Great Day

I enjoyed a wonderful evening with the ladies group at Charity Baptist Church. I've never met a more loving group of women, and I love them all dearly. I was given the privilege to share some of my testimony with them at the monthly ladies meeting, and it was such a blessing to me. I hope they were blessed as well.

Earlier in the day, I got to talk to my good buddy KJ. We hadn't talked in nearly a year, and it was such a wonderful time catching up on what's going on with each other. Also, there is a possible business venture that will come from our conversation, and I'm very excited to see how that goes.

Sam didn't have such a great day. In fact, he is pretty upset with me. I had promised him that today he would get to go get his learner's permit, but that didn't happen. I checked online to make sure we had everything we needed and realized that we have to have a letter from the school saying that he is meeting the compulsory attendance requirement. Since school is on spring break this week, Sam will have to get that letter next week. Boy, is he mad at me for not checking on that stuff sooner! I feel really bad about it, too.

White Flag

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
Or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was there
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

A Good Day

Today started out with a call from the GI specialist's nurse to let me know that Sam's ultrasound came back normal. While I'm very glad that all of his abdominal organs are fine, I'd like for them to figure out what is wrong soon! He is still suffering from nausea and stomach pain, except when he takes the medicine the doctor prescribed.

I had a short shift at work today, but it was BUSY! I was in toys, trying to put out a pallet of freight. I got a lot of it put out, and I also had an interview for another position. I think the interview went well, and I really hope I get it! I need it.

Tomorrow starts my mini-vacay. I'll be off work for FIVE days in a row, and I'm so excited!!! I hope I get to rest some. That's what I need right now, more than anything.

I've got something big going on tomorrow. I don't want to say yet what it is, but I will need prayer to get through it. I pray that God will be able to use me, even though I am such an unworthy vessel.

Me and the Eagle

I first heard this song nearly 11 years ago, and I loved it immediately and became a fan of Steve Earle. It's rather haunting, but I love that quality of it. Also, there are certain memories that come flooding back when I hear this song...another reason I love it.

Weekend Report

Wow! Yesterday was quite a day. I worked in toys ALL day, and it was exhausting. I mostly zoned and zoned and zoned some more. The thing about the toy department is no matter how much you zone, it takes only one kid just a few minutes to destroy all your hard work. I was satisfied that the department looked much better when I left than it did when I got there.

One of the managers told me that he was going to interview me for another position yesterday, but it didn't happen. I was really too busy in toys, and I'm sure he was busy doing whatever it is he does. I hope I get the interview Monday. I really, really hope I get that position!

I was so tired, I went to bed EARLY last night. I tried watching a movie on tv, but I fell asleep before it was over. I got up bright-eyed and looking forward to church. Sunday school was a blessing, as always! I truly love the ladies Sunday school class. Unfortunately, Sam was feeling poorly again, and we left the worship service after the singing. He took some of the medication the GI specialist has prescribed him, and we're expecting him to feel better tonight. The youth group are going to be doing some special things in the service, but I'm going to miss it because I have nursery duty tonight.

Please keep praying for Sam and for the doctors to find out what is wrong. When he takes the pain and nausea medications, he feels better; but today is proof that he still has the symptoms when he doesn't take his medicine. I hate to see him suffering the way he is; I want him to get well soon and go back to being my bright, cheery boy again.

45th Anniversary

Were my mom still alive, today would be my parents' 45th wedding anniversary. Below is a picture of Mom and Dad on that day.



I thank God for the parents He gave me, and I miss my mom terribly.

Keep Praying for Sam

I just received a call from the GI Specialist's nurse. All the lab results and X-rays from yesterday came back normal. Tomorrow, he goes for his ultrasound. While I'm glad results are coming back normal, at the same time, I want them to find out what's wrong SOON, so it can be treated. I hate seeing him suffer as he has been. Please just keep him in your prayers!

Please Pray for Sam!

For the past three months or so, Sam has been complaining of stomach pains and nausea. I've had him to his regular pediatrician several times and even to the ER once. Today, he went to a pediatric GI specialist. They took blood and some X-Rays, and Friday he goes for an ultrasound. Hopefully, we'll know something soon.

So far, the only thing they can tell us is that an enzyme in his pancreas was slightly elevated, and although pretty much his whole abdomen seems to be tender, it is most tender around the area of his gall bladder.

The doctor today prescribed three different things to ease his symptoms. I'm hoping they will help him be able to eat better. When a 15-year-old boy starts eating only one meal a day, you know there is something seriously wrong!

Using Talents for God

I've always been a proud Mama, and I have documented many of Sam's accomplishments here on this blog. Sunday, I was prouder than ever because my son used his talents to serve God. In the morning service, he and two other kids in the youth group played their instruments for the offertory. In the evening service, Sam was part of a quartet made up of more kids from the youth group. I am so pleased with his desire to serve God with his talents.

Here are some sill shots from the offertory. Special thanks to Judy Williams for taking these pictures and sharing them with me.











Below are one-minute clips from each special. In the second one, Sam is singing a solo part.

Un-Fatherly Father

Sam doesn't know his real father, but he knows who he is. When he found him on facebook, he sent him a friend request, hoping to get to know him some. (I personally didn't like the idea, but since he's 15 now, I let him make his own decision on that.) Well, I guess his "father" didn't like the idea either. Instead of accepting the friend request, or just ignoring it, he blocked Sam on facebook. I find that totally reprehensible!

Amelia Bedelia

I was scheduled to work in the toy department at work tonight. That's not my favorite. I much prefer working in electronics. Anyway, I spent most of the time straightening merchandise (zoning) and putting up strays and returns. While I was zoning the Little Golden books and other little children's books, I saw a couple Amelia Bedelia books, and that made me think of my mom.

For several years, Mom was an elementary school librarian, and a very good one, too! One of her favorite things was reading to the young children when they came in with their classes. On special occasions, she would sometimes dress up as Amelia Bedelia and read a story in character. I loved to see her in that costume! She made such a cute Amelia Bedelia.

When I saw those books today, I got a little lump in my throat; but my mind was flooded with sweet memories of Mom, and it was all good.

Teenage Driver

It seems like just yesterday when Sam was learning to walk, and now he's learning to drive. Where has the time gone?

Today, we went for a driving lesson. I always think I have weak nerves, but they must be nerves of steel since I am surviving teaching Sam to drive. Today's lesson was a huge success, too. He finally mastered taking off without jerking or stalling. Of course, if we had an automatic for him to learn on, it would be easier for him; but it is so good for him to be able to drive a 5-speed.

We haven't had a chance yet to get his learner's permit, so we practice in an empty parking lot. In a couple weeks, he should have his permit and be able to take it on the road. He can't wait! I'm still a little leery about that.

Quotes

This week, I've run across a few quotes that piqued my interest, and I decided to share them here.

Nothing gives one person so much advantage over another as to remain always cool and unruffled under all circumstances. ~ Thomas Jefferson

Love is an act of endless forgiveness, a tender look which becomes a habit. ~ Peter Ustinov

Anything I can not transform into something marvelous, I let go. ~ Anaïs Nin

When you need to talk I am here. When I need you to listen you are busy. When you finally decide who I am in your life...I will be gone. ~ unknown

Women are born angels. And when someone breaks our wings we simply continue to fly ..on a broomstick. Be warned. We are flexible like that. ~ unknown

Life is like an onion. You peel it off layer by layer and sometimes you cry.
Unknown

Hello Stalker

To the person who repeatedly accesses this blog by google search of "suzannes blatherings", don't think I don't know who you are. IP addresses are very revealing. What I don't know, though, is why you find it necessary to come here 8 times in one day. Things don't change that frequently around here.

I Will Always Love You

If I should stay,

I would only be in your way.

So I'll go, but I know

I'll think of you ev'ry step of the way.

And I will always love you.

Will always love you.

You, my darling you. Hmm.

Bittersweet memories

That is all I'm taking with me.

So, goodbye. Please, don't cry.

We both know I'm not what you, you need.

And I will always love you.

I will always love you.

I hope life treats you kind

And I hope you have all you've dreamed of.

And I wish you, joy and happiness.

But above all this, I wish you love.

And I will always love you.

I will always love you.

I will always love you.

I will always love you.

I will always love you.

I will always love you.

You, darling, I love you.

Ooh, I'll always, I'll always love you.

What Hurts the Most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house

That don't bother me

I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out

I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while

Even though going on with you gone still upsets me

There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok

But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most

Was being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go

But I'm doin' It

It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone

Still Harder

Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret

But I know if I could do it over

I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart

That I left unspoken

What hurts the most

Is being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most

Was being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you

That's what I was trying to do

Ooohhh....

Blog Stats

You may not be able to read the screen shot above, but what it says is that someone found my blog by searching "suzanne mulkey mumpower" on bing.com. I find that to be very interesting, but not quite as interesting as the IP address associated with it. Hmmm.....

Goodbye

I wanted you for life

You and me

In the wind

I never thought there'd come a time

That our story would end

It's hard to understand

But I guess I'll have to try

It's not easy

To say goodbye.

For all the joy we shared

All that time we had to spend

Now if I had one wish

I'd want forever back again

To look into your eyes

And hold you when you cry

It's not easy

To say goodbye

I can remember all those great times we had

There were so many memories, some good some bad

Yes and through it all

Those memories will last

Forever

There's peace in where you are

May be all I need to know

And if I listen to my heart

I'll hear your laughter once more

And so I've got to say

I'm just glad you came my way

It's not easy to say

Goodbye

Busy, Busy Wednesdays

Wednesdays have become very busy (and expensive) days for me. Today, I worked 7am to 3pm, then picked Sam up from school where he had trumpet lesson after school. He started off with the trumpet in the 6th grade and has moved on to the tuba this semester. Now, he has tuba lessons three times a month while keeping up with trumpet with one lesson a month.

We had just enough time to go home and change before he had to be at his singing lesson, which he started this week.

After voice lessons, we went out to eat since there wasn't much time before Sam had to be at church for youth meeting at 6:30. I got to sneak in a little nap in the car before the regular church service started at 7:00.

We finally made it home a little before 9:00, got ready for bed, and settled down for the night.

I am so glad Sam wants to develop the musical talent God has given him. It has become expensive for me, but it's worth every penny. I thank God for my extraordinary son!

The Irony of Life

Yesterday was Valentine's Day, which is always the worst day of the year for me. This year, it was probably the worst day since my mom died eight years ago. I got through it, though, and the day ended on a sweet note.

Today was a much, much better day. It started off with going back to bed after taking Sam to school. I had a very sweet dream about spending the day with a good friend. It started my day off in such a beautiful way.

Then, I met my friend Joan for lunch. We used to work together at Kintronic, and we don't get to see each other very often now that neither of us works there any more. We went to Wendy's, and I got an apple pecan chicken salad. That is one of my favorite foods, so I was in a happy place!

Later in the day, I went to work. I worked in the electronics department for the second day. It's so much less stressful than the front end, but it can also be a little boring at times.

In the almost three years that I've worked on the front end, I've never been asked to give the CSM a break, even though I wanted to learn the job. Today, now that I'm officially an electronics associate, I was asked to go up front and give the CSM her break. Talk about irony! It was fun, though.

I Still Miss You, Mom!

Eight years ago today my precious mom went to Heaven. I still think of her every single day and wish she was still here with me. There are many things that remind me of her as I go throughout my days. Here are a couple songs that always bring her to mind.





I have posted many tributes to her on here, with pictures and anecdotes. Instead of doing that again, I decided to give links to some of the old posts.

2/14/2007
11/6/2007
2/12/2008
4/3/2010

In Memory of Catherine Littereal

I don't like February. Lots of bad things have happened throughout the years in the month of February. In 2003, my Grandma died on the 2nd of the month, and my mom died just eleven short days later. Several other examples could be given, but the one I want to focus on today is the passing of a dear woman I was privileged to work with at Walmart.

Catherine Littereal, who bravely fought cancer, passed away early yesterday morning and is now at rest and healed completely. All of us as Walmart will miss her sweet spirit, but we are happy that her suffering has ended.

This display is set up in the store to honor her memory:

In Memory of my Grandma

Eight years ago today, my grandma, Thelma Grant, went home to Heaven. She was a unique lady and a wonderful grandmother. I have very fond memories of the times when we would go to Oklahoma to visit her. Daddy would always tell me and my brother to ask Grandma to make chocolate gravy for us. She knew he was behind it, but she would still always make it for us. She was a very compassionate person, with a big heart and a ready laugh.

Here she is with my dad's father. They look so in love. From her stories of him, he sounded like a great man, with a jovial personality, always cracking jokes. Daddy takes a lot after him, even though he died before Daddy was old enough to know him.



In this picture, Grandma is sitting with her two youngest sons, Marion and Jimmy. The picture is dated May 1961.



Here's Daddy and Grandma together at a family reunion in the early-80's.



This is one of the latest pictures I have of Grandma, and it's one of my all-time favorites. Her sweet spirit is so plain to see in her smile and her eyes.

SmartyPig Widget

I'm saving money to help Sam get his first car when he turns 16 in November. (He'll have to get a job this summer to save most of the money himself.) If you would like to help with this project, you can click on the "View Me" button to go to my Smarty Pig page, and then click on "Contribute."